A blessing of growth disguise!!💰💚👑🌟🔑

Sometimes we lean on our own understanding about experiences that occur in our life. I came to realize that anything we go threw whether you identify good or bad benefits our growth. I once thought that "If GOD✨💫 didn't 💛 me, I wouldn't be chastised" Any soul that cares for you will correct⏩ your ways, and most of the time we don't want to hear it👂 or believe it👄, but it's better than people just not saying anything and letting you destroy your life.💀

These things I have learned in my life. It still may be early in the year but 2017 was the DARKESS time of my life for me💃 and my children💏💏. At least that's what I thought at the time. My children and I were homeless, staying in shelters, walking down the street not having any money💲 but an EBT card💳, not where to go but to the park for the kids to play and for me to think. 🎠Every house🏡 we went to we wasn't wanted or got kicked out, with not concrete reason but my pain being their pleasure. I thought these people whom I've known these people for 10+ years, yes family members too! Friends I thought would never thought would turn their backs on us. Not so much as a phone call. I didn't want any handouts or being labeled as a victim. What I wanted was an upright in 💙 from these people who had loved me so much and knew the potential I had but still did not consider how we were dealing.👣

My ❤ had never been broken when my father walked out on me and his grandchildren and chose to follow the path of the HEBREW ISRAELITES which destroyed our potential of having a father and daughter relationship. At the time I'm writing thishe has done more to break my ❤ than mend what we never had. Many days I felt alone, many days I 😢in secret, many days I went without 🍴🍔🍕. My thoughts were feeding me, but my health knew better. I had aches and😩 pain everywhere threw out my body. My confidence was not where in sight.

How did I survive? I knew GOD🌟💫 was taking me threw this because I was being prepared for a bigger, greater life!!💍📘💰👑🎊😉🔯.

Friends, family, spouse's, maybe they did turn on me, and I thought about that a lot I really cared for these people, on the other hand these people never cared PERIOD!!🔴. I had to accept it. Acceptance of the situation changed everything.... What was I really losing❓fortunately I had to realize I am different. Everyone is not going to understand me😕. What was next for me they couldn't be apart of my journey, it wasn't meant for me to share. I've learned that this was a blessing in disguise I lived with people whom I knew didn't like me or my kids. I 🏠 with people who thought we needs them treated us wrong. I have had people LIE on me. I've had people to keep me and my children belongings even though they hated me and really wanted to throw it away. 😄His power is greater!! I'm sure ALL these people saw the spark in me, that I didn't see in myself yet. But I felt it...There were blessings coming to me spontaneously I almost didn't accept it.. Spirit and strangers assisted me. I felt closer to the spiritual than the physical. I was a threat!!💫📖🌟🎁💡🆒🎨🎵🆓♍®™💯. I am not the women to wish bad on a person who have wronged me. In no way do I seek to harm or mislead. I am true to myself and going threw what we just went threw taught me a lot about myself, life, and people who only talk while other's produce results. It may not be a lot of people on my side for me to win, but I am determined GOD💫✨ loves me. I realize that now. I had to be challenged😳. I had to be brokenhearted😢. I had to be misunderstood😕. Now I know the plan for my life. It's so amazing I can feel it now. I 👀 the light💡 at the end of the tunnel that I thought would never appear in the darkness, like the only friend I have left said to me " I'm sad to.. but your light is going to shine threw this darkness, just don't give up" I haven't and I won't.💋 💜