Understanding unconditional love

We have all @ one time or another felt like we loved someone unconditional. @ that particular time i didn't know the real meaning of unconditional love. I thought i knew but i wasn't even close... The love of my life did a huge thing for me when he walked out of my life, it wasn't because he didn't love me anymore, it was to teach me the real meaning of unconditional love. Did i love him from the heart or was it lust? I use to call nonstop, text nonstop, accuse him of this and that. I wasn't satisfied with what he was doing. It wasn't making me happy. If i didn't hear from my entire day would be shattered. I didn't want him going anywhere. I use to tell him he better not be with another women, even though i knew he was, it ate me up inside, he had complete and total control over me. All these things i did. I was miserable so i wanted him to be miserable with me. I knew that i loved him. I wanted to love him unconditional but my immaturity kept me from seeing the lesson I was suppose to learn.

When you love someone unconditional, you love them without conditions. You love them without the choke hold around their neck, you love them in spite of their flaws, faults, wrongdoing, mistakes, their ugly truths. I didn't understand the art of allowing.

Sometimes we feel when we are with someone we own them. We make unspoken demands then get mad when those demands are not met. We want love but sleeps with a guy the first few minutes of meeting. The way I was treated I accepted it until it became my normal. I didn't want nothing more but to just feel wanted and I gave my heart away not knowing who I was giving it away to. I'm not saying that when I did get to know him that he was a bad person, there were just a lot of mistakes on both our part. Since then I have let go my resentment, my anger, my lust and even though he wasn't able to take care of my heart he helped open up my mind, and for that I am appreciated. To be continued....